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Not the news you wanted to hear

Wed Jun 24, 2009, 1:25 PM
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Lisa Miskovsky - Still Alive
I think that says it all, don't you think? I've been reluctant to post this for a while now. However, I sealed my fate the second I wrote my last journal. I'm sure I'd be bricked if I left you all hanging.

So, the real trouble with my Mum's liver? Cancer again. Simple as that. What was once a dormant beast to us has reared it's head by manifesting as tumors in her liver, causing it to expand, and including such inconvenient side effects as loss of hunger, water retention in her legs and in her belly (which is rather large at present), and a bizarre diet, exhaustion, labored breathing for small physical feats. So on so forth. We find out tomorrow the treatment options. The liver is a ridiculously resilient piece of the human body - if you cut off a chunk of it, it regrows - but I believe that to be rather out of question due to the widespread nature of the tumors. Chemo then? We'll see. All I know is, this is touchy ground.

To top it off, my Grandmother of 90 years with late-stage-dementia had a fall on the weekend, resulting in a fractured hip. Her and my Aunt came to the hospital in town here, so we were there from day one. I go and take care of her when I can to give my Aunt a bit of a breather. The break could have been worse, I think. So now, it's simply a game of recovery or not. Only time will tell. But another thing to add to the list, neh?

I've met others who were caregivers at a young age and I've seen what it's done to them. My Aunt is a great shoulder for me, we can relate to each others circumstances, what with her caring for Grandmother all by herself and me being ringmaster of a family of four. I still worry about how young I am - I think I'll be able to handle it all with my job, but you know.. I think out of all of us, I'm probably handling it the best. Father and Nick have their battles that they have to deal with on the side. But they're doing what they can with the little they are able to offer.

Now it's just about taking one day at a time. No time to waste on blame games. Be it me, God, whomever. That's just silly. It's no one's fault, just life acting as unexpected and hectic as it usually does. There's no balance in it, some people have their pet-problems, some see extremes no one should see, others get off scot free without a speck on them. We happen to have a lot of sickness in our family. But I'm feeling rather secure. I'm being taken care of; we all are, so no need to stress over spilled milk. We have a lot of support coming in.



What all this means, really, is I'm not going to be here very much or able to reply. I will periodically upload art (no worries there) but I'm going to have to take it as it comes. I hope you all don't mind ^^

(p.s. Listening to "Still Alive" by Lisa Miskovsky makes me inescapably happy for some reason!)


Sincerely,
Sara F.

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